pagenicklas

Hello my name is Page, and im an addict. I drown myself sometimes But in sweeter things then cold lakes and destructive thoughts. See sometimes it's disguised in body glitter and shots. And instead of bullets my gun fires tequila. Escapism is a funny thing It comes in all forms of running   But for those of you like me I'm not very fast so I don't use my feet I use liquid that tastes like acid So as it slips down my throat I can pretend it's burning more then just my liver It can also set fire to the void inside of me melt the edges and seal them shut so I can ALWAYS feel happy. Because feeling sad fucking sucks So I get it Hello my na

I am going fucking crazy There is no God that I beileve in If there were then I could blame him.. And that would be to easy I have to go things the hard was Why do I even write poetry? Play on stupid rhymes and metaphors hoping maybe my words Will save someone's life But who is gunna save mine? Tonight I am not strong enough Tonight is one of those nights where I a complete mental Break down in my near future And I am the only one here..

He has tattoos on the backs of both hands, and I catch myself admiring the way they move while he touches me.. Photos that mean the world to him Dancing with the movement of his fingertips over my body. And i catch myself noticing the Cresent moon between his eyes and his chin.. The way the edges of his mouth turn upwards every time he hears my name.. It's a moon... just for me.. As if I'm some lost girl chasing a light at the end of the tunnel that may or may not have been my love life... I've  been so utterly confused since the first time. I served my heart steaming hot on a platter to a man who had no intention of loving me back -

It asked me for a name, and I couldn't give it one. I didn't have to think for long when I decided a poem I type on a screen wouldnt have very much meaning. Technology doesn't vibe with me. For lack of a better term. A pen when I write becomes an extension of me. And this phone.. remains forever another world. ----------------------------------------------------------------- And as I already knew, This didn't go well..