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Hello
Hello my name is Page, and im an addict.
I drown myself sometimes
But in sweeter things then cold lakes and destructive thoughts.
See sometimes it's disguised in body glitter and shots.
And instead of bullets my gun fires tequila.
Escapism is a funny thing
It comes in all forms of running  
But for those of you like me
I'm not very fast so I don't use my feet
I use liquid that tastes like acid
So as it slips down my throat I can pretend it's burning more then just my liver
It can also set fire to the void inside of me melt the edges and seal them shut so I can ALWAYS feel happy.
Because feeling sad fucking sucks
So I get it
Hello my name is Page and im an addict.
And I am using substance to run from substance
So really my next move should be turning the corner headed for help
But I am to God damn proud
So I go left instead of right and end up at the same bar i was at last night
Making excuses for myself
Like "you'll be alright there's no way you're a real alcoholic if your rent is
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Literature
11pm
I am going fucking crazy
There is no God that I beileve in
If there were then I could blame him..
And that would be to easy
I have to go things the hard was
Why do I even write poetry?
Play on stupid rhymes and metaphors hoping maybe my words
Will save someone's life
But who is gunna save mine?
Tonight I am not strong enough
Tonight is one of those nights where I a complete mental
Break down in my near future
And I am the only one here..
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Him
He has tattoos on the backs of both hands,
and I catch myself admiring the way they move while he touches me..
Photos that mean the world to him
Dancing with the movement of his fingertips over my body.
And i catch myself noticing the Cresent moon between his eyes and his chin..
The way the edges of his mouth turn upwards every time he hears my name..
It's a moon... just for me..
As if I'm some lost girl chasing a light at the end of the tunnel that may or may not have been my love life...
I've  been so utterly confused since the first time.
I served my heart steaming hot on a platter to a man who had no intention of loving me back -
Being devoured and tossed stole something from me.
I realized just now that I've completely lost sight of what it feels like...
What it truely feels like to wear your heart on your sleeve like some old patch you attached your clothes with a hot iron and hope..
But you didn't know what you were doing so at any given moment it might fall..
You might los
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It asked me for a name,
and I couldn't give it one.
I didn't have to think for long when I decided a poem I type on a screen wouldnt have very much meaning.
Technology doesn't vibe with me.
For lack of a better term.
A pen when I write becomes an extension of me.
And this phone.. remains forever another world.
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And as I already knew,
This didn't go well..
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6am
I lay here unable to sleep while I feel the cardboard I tried to disguise as walls start swelling around me,
What they are capable of and what I foraged them to do are two things so completely different that they've filled
They soaked in the elements as I knew they would
And now it's as though they drown in their fate, the same way as I do
I know they will crumble,
I have known
I've always tried to cut corners, and promise me when I say I've been clever; but as long as you build without blueprints - you'll be bound for leaks
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Runner
And was gone;
Lost.
Completely taken by the waves of her thoughts
And this...
This was her most frequently used form of escapism -
Find her here;
You will not
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Hello my name is Page, and im an addict.
I drown myself sometimes
But in sweeter things then cold lakes and destructive thoughts.
See sometimes it's disguised in body glitter and shots.
And instead of bullets my gun fires tequila.
Escapism is a funny thing
It comes in all forms of running  
But for those of you like me
I'm not very fast so I don't use my feet
I use liquid that tastes like acid
So as it slips down my throat I can pretend it's burning more then just my liver
It can also set fire to the void inside of me melt the edges and seal them shut so I can ALWAYS feel happy.
Because feeling sad fucking sucks
So I get it

Hello my name is Page and im an addict.
And I am using substance to run from substance
So really my next move should be turning the corner headed for help
But I am to God damn proud
So I go left instead of right and end up at the same bar i was at last night
Making excuses for myself
Like "you'll be alright there's no way you're a real alcoholic if your rent is paid on time"
Or
"It's not that bad because your skin is somehow still clear of tracks"
Shut up - the voice in your head it wrong -
SHE ALWAYS WILL BE

hello my name is page and im a addict.
Which means I am addicted to numbing..
Blurring my thoughts
Slurring my memory
And acting stronger then I actually am
As if I would be burned as the stake for showing myself weak
I feel incomplete and there is a bridge in the middle of town that I have always wonder just how high I would be able to count before there would be
No more sound
But I won't jump
I have too much to live for - irronicly enough.
I say that as if I'm not committing suicide already
Every fucking time I find the bottom of the bottle
Instead of a sea.

Hello my name is page and I am addict.
Please help me.
I am going fucking crazy
There is no God that I beileve in
If there were then I could blame him..
And that would be to easy
I have to go things the hard was

Why do I even write poetry?
Play on stupid rhymes and metaphors hoping maybe my words
Will save someone's life
But who is gunna save mine?

Tonight I am not strong enough
Tonight is one of those nights where I a complete mental
Break down in my near future

And I am the only one here..
He has tattoos on the backs of both hands,
and I catch myself admiring the way they move while he touches me..
Photos that mean the world to him
Dancing with the movement of his fingertips over my body.

And i catch myself noticing the Cresent moon between his eyes and his chin..
The way the edges of his mouth turn upwards every time he hears my name..
It's a moon... just for me..

As if I'm some lost girl chasing a light at the end of the tunnel that may or may not have been my love life...

I've  been so utterly confused since the first time.
I served my heart steaming hot on a platter to a man who had no intention of loving me back -

Being devoured and tossed stole something from me.

I realized just now that I've completely lost sight of what it feels like...

What it truely feels like to wear your heart on your sleeve like some old patch you attached your clothes with a hot iron and hope..
But you didn't know what you were doing so at any given moment it might fall..

You might lose it.
But the patch is so beautiful to you... you choose to risk it.

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Maybe it was never stolen.
I just needed him.
I can never just sleep

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Thanks for :+fav:ing "Transgresssor" natalievonraven.deviantart.com… :blackrose: Much appreciated! :painter: Have an awesome day! :blowkiss:
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Thank you for the fave :)
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Thanks for the fav
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Thank you kindly for the favorite! xx
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Thanks for faving instead of killing me :)
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you have a nice gallery so far :)
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Thank you so much for the favorite, it really means a lot to me. 
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Thank you for the favourite on "Who's At The Window"! Look out for the alternate ending coming out in a couple of weeks :D
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Will do ^^ Thankx for sharing
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